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RIP MJ

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 15:44:46 GMT

No one will know for sure if you were a pederass or not, but RIP Michael Jackson.
You were an incredible entertainer, and the song Ben still makes me cry, every time.

Enjoy. :(

Tue, 28 Apr 2009 18:14:53 GMT

In a closed society where everybody's guilty, the only crime is getting caught.
In a world of thieves, the only final sin is stupidity.

-Hunter S. Thompson

Having a bad day?

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 16:52:05 GMT

Take solace in the fact that you're not as stupid as any of these people.

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Hi

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 16:25:01 GMT

Strange thing happened to me this morning. My alarm went off at 7, and as per usual, I hit snooze until 7:20. But as soon as I hit snooze, it was 7:20.
No seriously, I hit snooze, rolled over, and my alarm was going off again.

I only remember this happening to me one other time when I was very young. I went to bed, rolled over, and it was morning. I didn't really feel tired, I just had no memory of falling asleep or even being asleep. It's a really unsettling feeling. Not "bad" or scary, just very very weird!

Sat, 03 Jan 2009 18:05:07 GMT

So I haven't written in months. Sorry! Nothing terribly exciting has gone on.
I got a 3.5 this semester which made me happy, but I walked away from my job. Honestly, I feel worse about letting my manager down than anything else, but seriously, fuck best buy, and fuck that job right in it's ass.

So bottom line, I'm a very poor student once again! The next time something of note happens I'll be sure to post ;)

But until then, I hope you all had safe and happy holidays and great new years!

"fun" at work

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 16:24:56 GMT

For the second time since I started at best buy, someone has stolen my lunch. Admittedly I didn't have to buy a $5 sandwich from starbucks today, but I would have been just as mad if someone had stolen something out of my bag lunch (like last time!) or worse yet, my bento box.

Taking an idea from passiveagressivenotes.com, I stuck a snarky note on the fridge in the lunchroom.

it reads as follows:

Dear lunch thief,

Please stop stealing other people's food. It's not nice.

If you are starving, the city of Wilmington offers services for the desperate.
Call Social Services for help at (###)###-####

I hope they get the message.

Life is hard. 4 srs.

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 02:17:04 GMT

I know it’s cliché, but it’s true. In quitting my 50k a year job to be a poor student who struggles just to make it to class, I’ve learned a lot about myself, my habits, my wants vs. my needs and life in general.

I feel guilty complaining. I’m lucky to have what I have – a roof above my head, a job, a car, the opportunity to go to school… you know, things could be worse. I could be dying of Malaria somewhere in Africa or something far worse. But I suppose it’s all relative. I have a right to complain that I hate my job and I suck at school because I’m lazy and anxious and can’t get my shit together.

I lived the “good” life. At 24 I was making 50k a year, going on business trips and enjoying cocktail hour with my fellow employees. I was a distinguished and respected employee at my former job. Seriously. But I wasn’t happy. I felt empty. I started acting out early this year, and only some deep soul-searching helped me to figure out that all that computer work wasn’t making me happy. I didn’t feel fulfilled, and sure the money was good, but what’s the point if you leave every day feeling so void?

There’s such a big part of me that wants to drop out of school right now and get all my money and loans and shit together and do it all right next semester. But that’s a few months away, and who says I’m not going to fuck it up again? I left my job to try and do it right this semester, and despite the 2k I had saved up over the summer, I pissed it all away on unimportant stuff (well, some unimportant. A nice chunk of it went to the clinic when that bastard cat nearly gnawed my arm off) instead of saving it for tuition. Granted, I thought I would be making a lot more money than I am, but that’s only half an excuse. I’m notoriously bad with money and this isn’t helping.

It sucks that doing what I truly want to do with my life has come with such shitty consequences. Half of it is my own irresponsible fault, but the other half is just that life is not fair. It’s just not. The world doesn’t owe you anything and you have to work to achieve what makes you happy.
The catch is this: What makes you happy won’t necessarily provide you with enough means to live on. Again, life isn’t fair. But if you’re driven enough you’ll make it work. That’s the part with which I’m struggling. I want so bad to do what I’m doing and to graduate with flying colors and go on to be a nutritionist, but it’s just not that easy. Life just isn’t that easy, and I’m having a hard time coping with that.

Tue, 21 Oct 2008 17:00:51 GMT

Just ran a mile in about 15 minutes (not good for most. Excellent for me. I suck at running) and am feeling great! I run with 5lb weights on, so when I take them off and start walking again I feel extra bouncy. It's a good thing.

Excersising makes me feel a lot less stressed. Whilst running I sorted out my tuition problem, kinda. I applied for a stafford loan today and am praying it gets approved very soon, so I don't get kicked out of the one thing that's making me very happy: school. I really do love school, as much as I bitch about having to wake up early for classes, yes, I really love school. And I really hope this loan gets figured out ASAP, so I don't have to drop out. I imagine this school is somewhat lax on tuition though, I mean I have paid 25% already, and they haven't dropped me yet.... Maybe if I go there and cry poor, they'll give me an extension. I can't imagine I'm the first one to ask this. Wish me luck.

In other news, it went from the heat of summer to the dead cold of near-winter here. The last few weeks it was in the low 70's, this past week we've broke 55 once. I love fall, but am very surprised on how quickly it fell on us.

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 20:32:19 GMT

anyone want to lend me $816.50? Cause I'm about to get kicked out of school if I don't pay it.

/weep
/beg

for sean (and everyone who isn't sean and appreciates random fuckery)

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 04:38:03 GMT

Peter Schiff describes the current economic crisis in detail ... in 2006

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 01:31:46 GMT

This guy was one of Ron Paul's economic advisors and here he is just completely nailing the current crisis before it happened.

It sure is a good thing that Ron Paul was labelled as a radical lunatic by the media, because we wouldn't want anyone who actually understands the situation and its causes to be in the White House, now would we?

Enjoy.

thanks sean

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 01:47:59 GMT

I'm feeling terribly low today. Sometimes I get into these moods where I feel bad, and every little "bad" or "semi-bad" thing that happens to me somehow turns into a giant mountain of badness.

I'm heartbroken. I hate my job. I'm falling behind in school. I'm $800 behind on my tuition. I've been getting sick for almost 2 weeks. I haven't done laundry in a month (minus underwear and work clothes). One of my cats is insanely sick. I'm broke. I look like shit because I'm broke and sick and haven't done laundry in a month. I miss my friends. I miss loving. I miss being loved. I'm exhausted.

I'm sinking into depression because of all these things, and because I can't draw up the strength and will to make them better, I fail, and fall further down. It's so hard to try and stay positive when you feel like your life is a clusterfuck of loneliness and you give everything you have to try and stay afloat. But I'm not. I'm drowning, and I'm ashamed of it, and that makes it even harder.

Usually at this point in a post I'd apologize for being so emo and write some sort of clever quip about pms or something. I can't do that today. I can't brush off how I'm actually feeling and glaze over it with bad jokes. I am sad and I'm going to be sad about being sad, dammit.

VOTE!

Sun, 05 Oct 2008 03:36:31 GMT

and p.s., I love Sarah Silverman

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 03:19:44 GMT

Dear Moses,

Watching your health dwindle this past year has been nothing short of heartbreaking. I love you more than a person probably should love a cat, because you were always more than just "a cat", you've been a true friend to us all. You deserve the world.

You have always been the best of the cats, the "coolest" we'd say, because you're always so calm. You are the best cat this family has ever had.
My favorite memory of you is packing you in my backpack to surprise visit my sister in the hospital. You were cool in the car, you were cool in the backpack, and you were cool in the room, just hanging out. I knew I could count on you to make her happy, and you never disappointed.

So I sit here, watching you struggle to breathe and keep your eyes open, I know your time to leave us is soon.
I'll miss you more than I can ever say. You've been a true friend to myself and the rest of the family. I only wish I could somehow pay you back for the years of love and companionship you've provided anyone lucky enough to grace your presence.

I love you with all of my heart, cat. If we brought half the joy to your life that you brought to ours then I'll know you had a good run.

Please keep an eye on my kittens from kitty heaven, they'll need it.

<3<3

if you vote mccain/palin, I will come to your house and punch you

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 20:36:14 GMT

...and a clip from this article sums up why quite nicely.

"...Palin is a rightwing-Christian anti-choice extremist who opposes abortion for any reason whatsoever, except to save the life of the girl or woman. No exception even for rape, incest, or the health of the woman. No exception for a ten-year-old, a woman carrying a fetus with no chance of life, a woman on the edge of suicide-- let alone the woman who is not ready to be a parent, who is escaping domestic violence, who is already stretched to the limit as a single mother. She wants to force over one million women and girls a year to give birth against their will and judgment. She wants to use the magnificent freedom the women's movement has won for her at tremendous cost and struggle--the movement that won her the right to run those marathons and run Alaska -- to take away the freedom of every other woman in the country."

-She's against marriage equality and supports a federal gay-marriage ban, but has made sure to note that she "has gay friends."

-She believes schools should teach creationism.

-She believes schools should teach abstinence-only sex ed. Coincidentally, her 16 year old daughter is pregnant. Define: Hypocrite.

Sarah Palin, you are not qualified to run this country, even at the side of John McCain (who shouldn't be running the country either, but that's another story). I can count three Republican women off the top of my head who are more qualified to be VP than a woman who's been governor for not even two years.

Don't vote for Sarah Palin just because she's a woman. She's a woman with very anti-feminist beliefs. If you vote for her, you are doing every American woman a huge disservice. More women than men vote now, and I am hoping that enough women can be counted on to vote for someone who will push for the advancement of women, not just because of her sex. We have come too far just to be pushed back by a hypocrite right-wing Christian fool. If she's elected, we're all fools too.

It's no lie that I was a big Hillary supporter, but it wasn't just because she's a woman... she is a woman who would have worked for equal pay, affordable health care, pro-choice rights, alternative energy...a million other things that would help the advancement of women (men, too. but that's not really the issue) in America.
She has experience. She's intelligent. She stayed with her husband after he got sucked off in the White house (props, Hil. I would have divorced his ass). She's not as glamorous as Sarah Palin, but why should she have to be? The presidency isn't a beauty pageant, obviously. GWB is no looker.

It breaks my heart that Hillary didn't make it as far as Palin did, without Palin even trying. We all know McCain only picked her as his running mate to sway discouraged Hillary voters. Don't fall into his trap! Vote for someone for their beliefs! I don't care if you vote for Bart Simpson or Edward Scissorhands or Mickey Mouse, please, just don't vote for McCain/Palin.

If you vote for McCain/Palin this election, I will come to your house and punch you.

I fcking love Google

Wed, 24 Sep 2008 19:29:08 GMT

http://www.project10tothe100.com/index.html

This is the coolest project I've ever seen!

If you know me well, you know I'm obsessed with Google and constantly cry about how badly I want to work for them. It's innovative ideas like this that make me love Google with every fiber of my being.

I'm trying to think of an idea... something that revolves around the safety (or lack thereof) of the internet. As I mentioned in a previous post, nothing pisses me off more than spyware/viruses, so much that the internet has become a very very scary place. There's got to be something the geniuses at Google can do to help reduce it, or come up with some kind of browser or program that explains exactly what a program/cookie/whatever does before you download/execute it.

That's just the basic idea, obviously that only works in theory, but I'm definitely going to wrack my brain thinking of something that will actually work over the next few days. I'm sure it's gonna be one of those things that pops into my head randomly in like, the shower or something.

I <3 you, Google.

L'amour est un oiseau rebelle

Tue, 23 Sep 2008 02:54:22 GMT

...is the name of the song from Carmen that I've been trying to figure out for like, a million years.

LOVE her voice. love love love this song!

Enjoy!

-> for anyone curious, "L'amour est un oiseau rebelle" translates roughly to "Love is a rebellious(free) bird".

Goodbye, my friend. No big loss (pun intended).

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 01:02:13 GMT

Today I must say my final farewell to a friend of mine. Our relationship has hit a point where I don't think continuing it is in either of our best interests.

And by hit a point, I mean the point where you thought it would be a good idea to send me a picture of your penis.
W.T.F?

We have been friends for some time now. We hooked up a few times. It was below average...and by "it" I mean both your penis and your sexual prowess.

That being said, WHY DO YOU THINK I WOULD WANT TO SEE THAT AGAIN?!
We hooked up over a year ago. Maybe even over two. Penises are ugly. Yours is no exception. I could probably think of a million more reasons for you to not send me a picture of your penis. Why? WHY?!

To make things worse, when I asked you, verbatim "WTF are you sending this to me for?" you told me you were bored.
Bored?! When I am bored I read a book, play video games, take a bath, whatever. I don't send pictures of my naughty bits to my friends.

When I told you I didn't want to see you this weekend because I was creeped out by the whole situation, you told me you "were kidding".
Kidding? Kidding?! Sending a picture of your peen is kidding? I'd hate to see what you send people when you're being serious.

That being said, I am afraid I must bid you adieu. You crossed a line with the gross penis picture thing, and I've reached a point in my life where I'm starting to pull out (no pun intended) the good friends from the bad ones.

You, my dear penis-picture-sending-ex-friend, are a bad one.

So long~~

grrrrr

Wed, 17 Sep 2008 19:20:29 GMT

My mom found out her identity and credit card numbers got stolen today.

Luckily she is with a good bank and they denied most of the transactions, minus one, which she won't be responsible for in the end... Regardless, it still pisses me the fuck off that someone would do that.

You hear about identity theft all the time, but you never realize how terrible it is until it hits you or someone you love.

I work on a lot of computers at work that have countless amounts of malware. I don't doubt whoever did this to my mom, somehow someone got her number online--more than likely from a piece of software or a driveby website. Is it her fault? No.
People who do this are the scum of the earth. I may work for big evil Best Buy, but I am out there every day trying to right the wrongs of spyware, trojans, etc.
In the long run, yeah, I'm one of the good guys.
I'm not out there writing programs that steal your info so I can spend YOUR hard earned money.

I hope the bank finds out who did this. I hope my mom prosecutes them to the full extent of the law. I hope they never tell ME who it is, because I'll hunt them down myself and it won't be pretty.

If you have a few extra dollars to spare, I suggest donating to Lavasoft, Spybot or AVG (Grisoft). These people write tried and true anti-spyware and anti-virus programs and don't charge you a thing. Admittedly the "pro" services cost something, but I'm sure 90% of what's downloaded from them is the free stuff. For as much use as you're going to get out of the free programs, what's a few $ donation?

Shear dummies

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 05:15:02 GMT

Shear Genius spoiler alert!

If you don't want to know who won, don't scroll down. I'm not putting it behind an lj cut.

OK seriously, Dee?
I mean she's not a terrible stylist by any means, but Nicole was my favorite, and I think Charlie was the most talented! I thought for sure one of them would win! Also I want to cuddle Charlie, he's so sweet and flamboyant. ARGH! Seriously, Dee?!

Ah well. At least Stephanie won Top Chef. She deserved it. But Dee? I am disappointed, BravoTV!

Bento #2, yummmmm

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 18:04:36 GMT

Todays Bento for lunch @school
(as always, sorry for the crappy camera quality)

Top tier (front)
Pineapples
Rice puddling
mini Reese's cups
Feta cheese (in mustard container, for the salad!)
Balsamic Vinagrette (square bottle, also for the salad)
Ginger-sesame sauce (in pig bottle, for the steak)

Bottom tier (back)
Cold Soba noodles w/sesame seeds
Leftover grilled steak
little side salad with mint leaves

yum!

xoxo
girl

I love making bento boxes, yes I do

Tue, 26 Aug 2008 18:35:01 GMT

My very first Bento that will be taken into public. I'm proud of it, even though it's nowhere near as good as the ones on

bentolunch, but I'm dying to eat it, and I'm happy with how it came out, for the most part. Especially the little apple rabbits!

Sorry about the quality, my camera is horrible.
Anyway~

Bottom tier (back):
Jasmine rice with roasted sesame seeds and nori "grass"
roasted corn (my favorite!)
Lime and Pepper grilled chicken leftovers from last night (yummm)

Top tier (front):
Cantaloupe
Sugar snap peas
Cheddar cheese shreds
Apple rabbits

Another view. Again, sorry for the quality :)

Closed up.

All packed up and ready for school :D Isn't this the cutest box you've ever seen?

I am *definitely* still learning!

xoxo
girl

shameless links. no i don't make money off this.

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 02:45:37 GMT

Every morning when I get up, before I even check my email, I go to the following websites:

ffffound.com/

ffffound makes me happy. Random, cool images bookmarked on one site. I've found some of the most beautiful and bizarre images on there. A definite must-set-as-homepage.

dlisted.com

I like celebrity gossip as much as the next red-blooded American girl, but this site is different. Yes, it's still a celebrity gossip page, but the author, who refers to himself as Michael K. is the single funniest blog writer on the planet. I aspire to write pieces that are half as funny as his. Sadly, we are a world apart. He's gay as the day is long, and taken! Ah well, perhaps in another life, Michael K. <3

If you have a few minutes to spare, or are in need of a pick-me-up, I suggest visiting Dlisted and perusing the "Hot Slut of the Month" category.
Pure comedy gold.

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 03:15:35 GMT

Ha! I remembered! Bet you didn't see that one coming! Exclamation marks!!

SO, all my classes have been scheduled and school starts next week. Yay! I should be done in 2 or 3 semesters. I was only able to take 4 classes this semester but at this point I'll take what I can get.

Signing up for classes this semester was a ridiculously giant pain in the ass. It makes me so annoyed to think about how poorly colleges can be run. I am looking forward to my classes though, especially Nutrition. I wonder how much my opinion will change halfway into the semester. :D

I know, I know

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 04:48:07 GMT

"Tomorrow" somehow turned into 3 weeks. Sorry. Really!

School starts next week and I haven't been this excited for school to start since...well, ever.

I will write more tomorrow, I promise. I'm going to make it a goal once school starts to update daily, or at the very least, 5 days a week.

xoxo